You will not be afraid to speak up your mind, defend your opinions, or lose things you only ever have a tasteful illusion of having but don’t actually have in the first place. You will be completely honest with yourself and find a way of life that will allow that honesty to breathe and thrive.
We all have problems. However, many of those problems are actually caused by our own mind instead of what’s going on in reality.
He lived in the part of the city that was nice and central enough to make going home with a stranger not so scary. Maybe it should’ve been scary regardless but we never assumed the worst in this kind of situation, especially when we were expecting to have the best night of our lives.
At that stage of life, the timing was just not right for us. We both didn’t know what we wanted in life. We were so young, so unsettled, so different. I was at the start of the adulthood race with endless possibilities ahead while he was dealing with the ghosts of the path he had already walked through.
I know myself now. Whatever you think or say about me, or do to me, doesn’t change my value, doesn’t change the fact that there are many, many people out there who love me and think the world of me.
I’ve made bad decisions. I’ve been extremely irrational. I’ve done things that made absolutely no sense. And I realize for the most part, it was because I had no idea what my priorities and values were.
If you’re someone who thinks long-term, who wants to achieve your goals, you will need to care more than just feelings. You will need to focus on your priorities, your needs, your happiness, set your boundaries and look at the big picture. It might be hard at first, for sure, but it will always pay off in the long run.
I was young, and the thing about being young is that, I did what I wanted instead of what I should.
We fucked. No. I fucked him. I started it. But before we go any further, let me get this straight. This is not a story about boy meets girl, boy fucks girl, girl gets attached, girl goes crazy. This is about something else. Something more, let’s just say, interesting.