I know myself now. Whatever you think or say about me, or do to me, doesn’t change my value, doesn’t change the fact that there are many, many people out there who love me and think the world of me.
I’ve made bad decisions. I’ve been extremely irrational. I’ve done things that made absolutely no sense. And I realize for the most part, it was because I had no idea what my priorities and values were.
If you’re someone who thinks long-term, who wants to achieve your goals, you will need to care more than just feelings. You will need to focus on your priorities, your needs, your happiness, set your boundaries and look at the big picture. It might be hard at first, for sure, but it will always pay off in the long run.
As I lied next to him, watching him sleep, I wondered who kept him awake at night when I was not there. Who was the reason for those empty bottles with scratched labels on the kitchen counter. Who was the reason for the constant 4 am whatsapp last seen. Who was the reason for the […]
We fucked. No. I fucked him. I started it. But before we go any further, let me get this straight. This is not a story about boy meets girl, boy fucks girl, girl gets attached, girl goes crazy. This is about something else. Something more, let’s just say, interesting.
Earlier today I had an accident. I fell in the bathroom and my toes were stuck in the crack between the side panel of the bathtub and the floor. It’s hard to explain visually but basically I couldn’t get my feet out and I was in immense pain. For a second I really thought I might lose my […]
Lover, I don’t know what you’re doing with me. You should be with someone who goes to the gym, plays lots of sports, works crazy hours and travels all year round that she barely has time for you. You should be with someone who makes you crave her all the time so much that you start to […]
This gift of crossing lives with other beings whether the outcome is make or break, happiness or misery — it brings out from deep inside of you the realest bits of you. It forces you to face your own demons, enriches your experience and deepens your humanness.
I know depressed is not me. I’m so much more. That being said, yes, I can be depressed. It’s a truth that sometimes I’m convinced it’s best if I kill myself. What can I say? This is what I’m dealing with on a daily basis. It’s part of me.